Mardi 1 décembre 2009
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15:54
my state of wanting is becoming dangerous.
because now there is another thing i really must have. i have got to own this camera. being the one in front of the camera is not satisfying anymore.
alright.
what do i want? - a camera.
how do i intend to create that? - uhm. getting a job.
is the camera worth all the time spent at that job? -will know when i find out.
do i even have the time for a job? - i have 24 hours just like eveyone else. so, yes. but:
do i want to use my free time for a job? -no. not at all.
do i find it possible to do good in school, have a job AND have a happy life? -no.
see? those "do i" -kind of questions fuck you up.
and again a billionare's son is badly wanted.
Par fickle_girl
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Lundi 30 novembre 2009
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20:28
... with no strings attached.
whats in my head?
mainly names. actually there's names only. a name. and a few names. names that don't belong there. and now?
one thing is for sure not written onto that dice and therefore not an option any longer: lieing in my (heavenly) bed for hours feeling sick, communicating with the (too) many (mainly male) people
that i dearly care for but should not because they either live far away or are sods or other reasons.
time for me to feel healthy and vital again so there's no room for too many thoughts. they fuck me up all the time.
Par fickle_girl
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Lundi 30 novembre 2009
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18:07
i had one of those magic moments today.
it happened to be that i was way too early for dancing class, which takes place in the room that is also used for concerts.
tonight is concert-night in there and therefore some of the instruments were already set up. amongst them: this beautiful grand-piano, perfectly in tune. and no one was there. just me and the
piano. for almost an hour, undisturbed.
i got lost completely. and must have been one of the happiest girls in this world.
i know what i want now. and some day, i'll have it. i will. i just know.
Par fickle_girl
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Dimanche 29 novembre 2009
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15:42
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : movies.
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Vendredi 27 novembre 2009
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18:57
... and even though i feel like you must have been terribly unhappy at times and though you see the world differently than i do, i still sometimes want to take in your tempting point of view. you
never make me feel better. you touch the part of me that likes to be unhappy.
"we're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : words.
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Jeudi 26 novembre 2009
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15:09
well.
i spent most of it in the bathroom. geli and i had the sudden urge to intensify our haircolors. and after some hilarious hours of tormenting our hair we were to find out that nothing had changed,
really. we still had a good time ;)
our bathroom soundtrack consisted of:
stina nordenstam
and more melancholic tunes :)
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Mardi 24 novembre 2009
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15:14
yeah, its comfy and cosy and blah, i know. and i sometimes enjoy it. but its dark. too dark. and too cold. when the snow's here i'll be fine.
sit in the grass in malmö and get drunk while playing "king" in the sheen of a flashlight with awesome guys from holland, take a night swim in the ocean and then get up in the morning to take a
trip in their orange hippie-van and make it perfect with some icecream and strawberries, eaten with plastic spoons that break. that's where i wanna be now, what i wanna do now, instead of forcing
myself to smile in view of that fucking storm out there. alright. that was my five minutes. i'll get over it in a couple of hours.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : pictures.
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Vendredi 20 novembre 2009
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22:48
since i wasnt feeling very good i had to miss out on the irish night, leave out on guinness in our pub and stay home. :( but... i'm fortunate to have my awesome mommy
:) we had (a bunch of) wine, knitted for hours, ate way too much chocolate pudding for dinner and watched a chick flick. i dont think i can ever move out, i'll miss her too much.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Vendredi 20 novembre 2009
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21:59
i like how some of my memories are still touchable.
maxi, i miss you like no other, i miss all about you.
missouri 2007. sharon getting ready, maxi and me hanging out at home.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Jeudi 19 novembre 2009
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17:27
people come and they go.
it is astonishing how some of them just seem to be meant to stay in your life.
you cannot get rid of them, even if you try your hardest. and even when there's no contact, they don't fully disappear out of your head. not after 5 years and probably not after 10.
i calmly realized that it is pointless to fight against the presence of those people in my life and decided to let them take their places. we'll see what it brings.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Samedi 14 novembre 2009
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19:41
friendship-bracelet of joe and me.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : pictures.
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Jeudi 12 novembre 2009
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23:00
i have a headache. i'm tired, but dont want to sleep. i did not get done the things i wanted to get done. i
know i must sleep if i want to be helpful for the preparations tomorrow, but i want to watch a jane austen movie. i'm hungry,but have brushed my teeth already. i'm thirsty, but am too lazy to get
something. i'm not very creative today, because i just was unable to write a good song for my best friends birthday and it frustrates me. any questions?
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Lundi 9 novembre 2009
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19:50
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Dimanche 8 novembre 2009
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17:51
i'm really not the best "homie" at the moment. i tend to waste my time whenever i'm at home. it didnt use to be
like that. i played the guitar or worked on my paintings, i wrote or read or cooked or talked to my mom, i went for a run or just sat in my tree. i loved to be by myself.
at this time being, the best place for me to be is with someone. i get lost at home. its always the same. the first thing i do when i enter my room is to press that devilish "on" button of my
notebook. i intend to check my email, answer messages on facebook, leave a tweet and read one of my favourite blogs. period. and then... it absorbes me. and after two hours i'm in the worst mood. i
dont get anything done and even avoid to do the things that make me happy.
how insanely foolish.
my attempts of changing that didnt go very far. not yet.
i might just banish my notebook into another room.
time for me to break the vicious circle. and have fun on my own.
Par luisakara
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Publié dans : my course of life.
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Vendredi 30 octobre 2009
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18:08
hej, hej.
i love and hate the internet at the same time. on one hand, it uses up a lot of my time: i answer a bunch of emails every day and check my facebook account, i'm addicted to twitter and so on.
but on the other: the internet enables me to be in contact with people that i love and that i would probably still not keep in touch with if it wasnt for the internet.
for communication, i use emails. for pictures, there's facebook. for music, there's myspace.
i thought that a blog is a pretty neat thing to make it possible for others to simply check on me if they feel like it. plus i can indulge in my urge to talk ;)
at first i was going to have my blog instead of newsletters as soon as i leave germany so that my relatives and friends know what i'm up to. but i want to start already.
most of you know that my interests are diverse, there should be something for everyone from time to time.
even though this blog is mostly meant for the people who know me, maybe others will have a good time as well ;)
enjoy.
loves to you from
luisa kara
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