i think luisakara.over-blog became an archive without me noticing.

i'm thinking about closing this blog and opening a new one.
all these documentaries of things going on in my life that only i was fully capable of understanding have become dear to me.
but at the same time, its not enough me anymore. my thoughts dont come to fruition on here.
its girly. and too much pretending at times.
the image that i created of myself in this blog is holding me back.
i will be moving to düsseldorf soon and its not that i would want to start over entirely, i acually want to take as much as i can with me.

but i already know that this blog is more of an archive already.
it wont make it into my new life.
as many of you know, my attempts of getting clean about all this blogging have not been successful, i sometimes need to whisper a few lines into the world that dont have a certain destination. 
in case i should really start something new, i will let you know. and until then you might still find new posts on here until it just fades out...

thank you for reading my blog which was a piece of bullshit at times.
thank you for understanding that i never wanted to know who my audience is.
thank you for being so many at times (over 1000 in july'09).
thank you for not being mad at me for not publishing your comments.
thank you for your emails, ideas and wishes.
and most of all - thank you for being my valve.

heres to all of you.